From the moment I opened my summer training packet, I saw the first real sign that my life as a Division I college lacrosse player had officially begun. I felt overwhelmed but excited. The workouts looked intense, with lots of running that I did not do in high school. The expectations felt heavy before I even started. I had already begun doubting myself and my capabilities.
The reality of transitioning from high school athletics to Division I college Lacrosse set in for me. I had a deep conversation with my brother. He told me that only about one percent of athletes play lacrosse in college. Understanding that statistic forced me to step back and recognize how privileged and fortunate I was. I had worked for years to earn this opportunity. It was time to step up to the challenge. My prayer was answered.
During the summer, I had to confront my own mindset. I learned that success at the next level requires replacing comfort with discipline. Just as I was adjusting mentally, I faced an unexpected challenge. The December before leaving for college, I was diagnosed with asthma. Suddenly, the physical demands of Division I athletics became even more intimidating. Instead of following the packet, I mentally and physically checked out. When I arrived at Delaware State University, I completed my first fitness test. I did not pass. That moment felt devastating. I believed I had already set myself back from the greatness I had imagined for my college career. Instead of giving up, I chose to refocus and commit to improving every single day. For next year, I will return mentally stronger, healthier, and with higher expectations for myself.
Academically, my first semester of college went very well. I finished with a 4.0 GPA. I found a balance between athletics and academics that made me proud. By the second semester, however, the pressure of school, sports, and personal growth felt overwhelming. I am a student first. Once I reflected on the habits and choices that helped me succeed during my first semester, I had to reapply my values and time management. My first year of college has been filled with growth, challenges, and self-discovery. I have learned how to live independently, build new friendships, and grow into the person I am becoming. Most importantly, I have learned what it means to be part of that one percent.
This journey is only beginning. As I continue to grow as a student, athlete, and person, I have learned what being a student-athlete means and not an athlete-student!
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